Remind Me

I don't know why
you're on my mind today
maybe it's the way
the sun it shines
and casts the shadows
in front of me
maybe it's the reminder
of birthday's come
and gone
maybe it's just time
but yet I can't
move on

there will never be
a you and me
sometimes I wonder
if the worlds gone
and erased you
the family moves on
seems so unfair
this daughter with
the lavender hair

I can't ask the questions
that haunt my mind
you never gave that to
me
I think about it all the time
but I've got to give it away
or those demons will
come and taunt me
got to throw you the day
or they'll bounce right
back
point and attack
and I can't give it back

I get so sick of hearing
the same old songs
the ones she sings along to
all while not even
carrying the tune
and those sometimes
even make me think of you

it's always going to be
a messed up piece of history
I'll place it back under the mystery
and pray I can let go
when life keeps
reminding me

we thought that things
would be better this way
but groan and we roam
memories all alone
and we never touch it

deep blue

back when we were the innocents
didn't know yet what life meant
the sun still shone when we got out of bed
the house was still warm
we believed what we said

something happened on the way here
something crushed in on what we held dear
something broke the glass
that held us in tight
something presses in my heart
it's something I try to fight

but you grew into the only thing you knew
spread out wide awkward wings and flew
away away, so far away
i miss the deep blue boy that would always say ...

I'd love you forever
hold me close
leave you never
and when it gets dark
I still believe
blue eye wonder

now I pray that everyday
you'd look past my faults and not walk away
we could never go back, it's the pain of life
we can only hold on, fight for what's right

and I see through what you want people to see
I see deep blue boy -- eyes like the sea
now dark and vieled as if in a dream
hold on tight please, things aren't as they seem

one day will be clear, we'll come out the otherside
and I want you to say you had nothing to hide
and it was just what you were, wanted to be
 I can't understand, but I want you to see

I'd love you forever
hold me close
leave you never
and when it gets dark
I still believe
blue eye wonder

So, come back, running
run with me
Come back
prodigal son to be

Your America

I don't understand your America
land of the free
and home of the brave
seems the brave are away
in the trenches
fighting for the freedom
we crave

I don't understand your America
where guns are a childs' best friend
then we cry while familes
lay dying
because mad souls
take guns to
their end

Where are we now?
Can we fight this somehow?

we trivialize
the innocents
glorify
the violence
smothering
the dissidence
frown upon
obedience
when it all seems so prevelant
hopeless faces
scream for
relevance
can we bring back
just one last chace
for America

So, I don't understand your America
the peroxide and spray tans and fake
little girls starving
their minds and mouths
knives carving
toxic beauty
based upon lies
and black lace

and I don't understand your America
celebrities king queen and joker
the same
every second of fame
we can squeeze from
our names
one day soon
it's all goin' up
in flames

and where can we go from here?
some kind of home where there is no fear
who would believe us now
can't you see
it's all coming
crashing down ....
on America ~

what are my flood waters
rising against all tides
these poisonous waves
these riped and torn hides

the place that I curl up into
and above
the place I seek most
the place called
this love

and watching you sleep
drowing around me
I stuff it down deep
pretend it surrounds me

the peace that I need
when it all falls apart
when days strech long
needles scraping my heart

was it easy to write
once a time, to carve deep
the silence of love
into two hands
and two feet

I believe it was as hard
as dark is to death
absence of light
the stench of
demon breath

but pulled back again
to peace here I sit
time will roll steady forward
I will steadily fit

these hands into yours
you never look away
this silence we share
no words I need to say

 let the waters rise
if it keeps me alive

So, I come and sit
another day
another way
to make these ends meet
tho frayed and bedazzled they can be
see the reflections of what was once me

what have I become
waking walking tired of talking
and what have I become
trapped in this mess, this dress
when all I want
all that I need
stares down at me
need to release
find the inner peace
someone please

take hold of me!

song for L

my beautiful friend
my beautiful friend
i am so sorry
this love has to end
the broken reed
was swayed till he bent

unable to be who he thought he was
angry and hurt now
but feeling just cause
to ravage and pillage
the gift he once sought
through you

but you you
my beautiful friend
justice in your hair
love in your hands
will triumph through the
years that come from this wasteland
just hold on
let the one be strong

for you, you
joyfully sent
will sit at His feet
cry into his hands
so one day
no more tears
for he knows the plans

Unglued

the wind keeps blowing
merciless,
I couldn't ask for less
this heart keeps going
as I rake the sky
these questions of why

why,
does this heart ache so much
to feel your touch
it's all just a memory
and
why
can't I feel you near
when will you hear
the screams that echo
your name

 all I wanted was
something normal
something that I could
hold onto
and as I fall
there's nothing to
hold onto
a faded dream
of what I thought
would be you
it's all come
unglued

so now,
this dance that I've longed for
across enemy lines
it's a distant shore
you won't let me
creep on in
as if my existence bears memory
to your sin
but, here's the deep
dark clue
nobody wins
when you come unglued ...

so,
all I wanted was
something normal
something that I could
hold onto
and as I fall
there's nothing to
hold onto
a faded dream
of what I thought
would be you
it's all come
unglued

oh, I always dreamed
someday
someday
there might be a way
to mend these
broken dreams
mend
these broken things
but now all this dust
comes crashing down
it's all real now
the only strength
I have
is the One who
dances with me
in my dreams
in my dreams
dark though it seems
He watches me
it's more than you
can ever be ... 

and
all I wanted was
something normal
something that I could
hold onto
and as I fall
there's nothing to
hold onto
a faded dream
of what I thought
would be you
it's all come
unglued