Frustration

(Big Sigh)
Sometimes I don't really understand this world, you think you have everything just right where you think it should be, and then things change, or what you thought things were, turn into something they're really not, and you sit there wondering how you could have been so blind, or so, non-noticing, but then you move on, because your told too, and you make your home somwhere else, safe, familiar, yet a little different, they things start to turn, and before you realize it your right back at the same beginning, just a different pro-log....So, now I'm left, more wondering, more skeptical than before, wondering if I can ever just chill and relax into, and worship without fear, or wondering, or thinking about what bomb/what person, will fall next. Just frustrating. Why can't things be simple, AND, (since I'm blogging) I SO feel like everything in this world, well most of it, which is mass produced piles of terd's gets all the glory (they could be legit, but I don't trust it, problem number 1) because they came from the factory, while beautiful, God fearing people with real talent are left having church at home? FRUSTRATING -- what would Jesus say? I think He would say "Change is coming soon, you have to stay a while longer, than I will place you where you need to be"...I guess, I'll keep praying, keep believing, keep loving God, because He's the ONLY constant in my life, and hope that things will continue to climb, my husband will continue to shine, and one day we'll move away... (L.A.?) and do it all over again, we'll just be warmer. =) And, I'll be growing real fruit in my backyard. Hello orange sun, humid heat and Hollywood freaks.