Tuesday, August 29, 2006

i am not

How is it that we are so easy to see the lumber in someone's eye
and yet pray that our 'spec' might be removed so easily....
How does God judge us?
work for us?
use things to benefit us?
use natures against us?
to mold us and make us realize, we are not stable
our world is shifting
nerves shaking...
How does He use little children
delicate innocence
to humble us
turn us around into the child we once were --
to show us what we used to love
and how to love again
How does God protect us from shifting shadows
lanky dark demons we cannot see
How does He free us
from bondage never before broken
strongholds so tight, they cannot be shaken off
but He takes them off
How does God care about every hair?
Every feeling, construct every meaning
to the very end
And
Why does He bother?
Because
He loves
is love
jealousy
mighty
heavenly
safety
glorious
warrior
El Shaddi
everlasting
all forgiving
King of all Kings
Alpha and Omega
Peace
Perfect
and
i
am
not

2 comments:

kanadians in korea said...

this blog gave me shivers ammeee. and i'm tearing up because i miss you so much. life is hard, because it's different. thanks so much for staying the same, for your unshakable faith, and yet at the same time, for your questions. i love you girl. em.

.a. said...

Thanks for this comment beautiful -- life is hard -- but you'll get used to things, it's a new normal.
I love you!