BLUE

stuck in a city
a million miles
of sallow self pity
i feel so alone

and lonelyness
my hearts
cry
i guess
beside myself
there's no one else

blue
is my room
city stars
can't brighten
my night
it's blue

the world gets smaller
the orders get taller
and i
sit here,
wondering,

what
i'm doing here
while friends change
families go away
my heart remains
tied to what I
miss so much

I'm just tired
of feeling
inadequate
selfserving
selfish