I am tired of small relationships
miles and miles of wide,
only inches deep inside

I am growing dead inline
with all that hates me
wants to see me quit
suffer through it

where is the warm
burning ember that I remember
talked to in my slumber
full of life and wonder

why, why, can't I see through the lies anymore
getting struck to the core
with numb, this numb fuzz
that dulls all my anger
dulls my surrender
it's like quick sand
in a barren land
drowing me slowly
these ropes loose
but hold me

I am made my own captive
tell me just what that is
a pirate sailing my own personal sea of sadness
ship wrecked and torn down
miles of smiles cast golden frowns
but there is no treasure
that I remember
like that glowing ember